2018 was a difficult year for me, personally more than professionally oddly enough, and so it gives me great pleasure to welcome 2019 in with arms wide open, like that one song by Creed.
On the spectrum of New Years Resolutions Believers ranging from “My new diet starts Jan. 1st” at a 1 and “people who believe in resolutions are idiots” at a 10, I would say I am a solid 6. While I do not believe there is something mystic about the calendar dates changing and suddenly having to write (do people physically write anymore?) 2019 at the tops of our diaries, I DO however find a good deal of satisfaction in setting goals and usually set them throughout the year. I have mostly had the same general goals since I was 19 and it has just been a very slow climb to accomplish those. So I am on more of a roll-over plan… maybe that is all of life, wild to think about it like that and a little too existential of a topic for this platform. Or maybe not? Still defining those boundaries tbh.
I hope to blog more this year. I always hope to blog more every year. Maybe it’s the idea of writing into the void or how I have to censor myself which takes a lot of effort. When I was younger people would tell me it was possible I was born without a filter, and similar jokes. I thought everyone said what they were thinking, as in I truly thought everyone said exactly what was in their thoughts and could not help it. Because I couldn’t. I now know for a fact this is not true and this has been a frustration of my existence and so if we are being honest maybe this is the reason I never get around to blogging habitually. I have so many things to say and so many things I shouldn’t say.
I guess I will just start to write, about anything I want and it will be a sort of test pool for data. Yes, I will do that. Happy 2019 my people.