Just found this draft from February. Looks like I posted it nor finished it but it seems worth sharing still as my sentiments remain...
I guess it's true that before the internet we still compared ourselves with other people, which I must say is hard to imagine because I didn't know much or anything about strangers lives so what could possibly be enviable. But wow social media has made it much worse and it seems to be the only thing I talk about with friends these days. In our industry or in others, or friends who are stay at home mothers. It seems to affect everyone.
In conjunction with aforementioned "life altering situations" has come epiphanies about what I care about in life and therefore what I care about in business. One of these things has been, I really don't care what someone I have never met before and have zero personal relationship with is doing on a Tuesday. Do you? Does it really add any intrinsic value to my life? Except I cannot help but compare this to the idea that I really never need an eclair but if you buy me one I will always, always eat it. Which leads me to the next point being that I am very much trying to be healthier. Move when I don't want to and journal when I don't want to and eat healthy when I don't want to because those in-fact are all things I do really want. The most bizarre thing to me is that we crave it, that we go back again and again to the thing that makes us feel awful. I'm not doing that anymore.
A therapist once said to me "Women tolerate a lot. They wait, and they put up with things, until they are done. And when they are done, they are really done." Which is precisely how I feel now in my life. What I like are my friends, and my family. I like to cook for people and pretend I am good at gardening. I like taking very long walks with no music and very long walks with new music. I like connecting with strangers, and social media helps that, until it doesn't and only we know the moment it changes.