Gillian + Jenn
Gillian is a lifestyle photographer based in Vancouver, and her work really encapsulates mood so well. While her images tend to be bright, she has such an ability to capture depth and mood in a way I haven't seen before with this style. It was so lovely to meet and work with her, truly a kind selfless soul. And I don't say that sort of thing often because it really is rare, but you just sense it immediately with few people.
She was going to be in LA for a bit and we met up with no real agenda other than flowers and photos of those flowers. Pretty vague, but projects like this are what really fuel creativity for me, although it hasn't always been this way. While we can all complain about a clients palette or design wishes, I used to honestly believe those confines were freeing. Being given carte banche would feel overwhelming (the whole paralysis leads to analysis thing), but I have learned it's important to face fears like this head on if you prioritize creative growth. Ya, I can get scared shitless about making a fool of myself or everyone finding out I've been making it up as I go along, but then you realize everyone feels the same way and everyone is improvising. Weird comfort in that. Also, the fears are always less dramatic than you imagined in your head. Always. I have been making more impromptu pieces since the start of the year like this one and this as well, and its amazing how just doing it and diving head first can give you loads of confidence for the next project. I like to compare it to finally getting back to the gym, it's never that bad and you never regret going.
Creating on the spot with an audience is tricky too. There were a few moments were I didn't like the direction or movement of the arrangement and while before I may have felt a wave of panic come over me, instead I thought "Dude, its NBD. Just start over". The decision to start over is always a tough one but it's like ripping off a band-aid. The quicker you do it the better and the closer you are to where you want to be (part B of that analogy veered off course but you get me).
Some of my all time favorite Spring blooms were in this shoot. Frtillaria (persica and thunbergii), blush lilac, ranunculus, white anemones, purple hellebores, french peach tulips, and plum blossoming branch. I'm going to be so sad to see Spring go. I always want to crawl in a hole and pretend it isn't happening.
I wanted to thank Anthropologie for the dress I am wearing. You're dressing room mirrors are very misleading and I anticipate the emails and texts upon posting inquiring as to whether I am expecting. But in all seriousness I really wanted to thank Gillian for taking her time to photograph me doing what I love. These photos are so valuable to me, thank you so much! Please check out her incredible work here